Andrea and your mother both mentioned that you were meditating upon eternity, it's value, it's glory. When I was really sick I was also. Wishing for that heavenly place and seeing all the world as nothing in comparison.
I was just reading scripture, and I thought I would pass along what I am meditating on tonight.
Rom. 6:10, For in that he died, he died unto sin once: but in that he liveth, he liveth unto God.
I referenced Matthew Henry next so as to understand how Christ "lived unto God," wanting to make no assumptions of my own. Logic dictates He was always living unto God. Out of curiosity I looked to see if there was more depth of understanding to this little phrase.
Matthew Henry says,
He rose to live unto God, to live a heavenly life, to receive that glory which was set before him. Others that were raised from the dead returned to the same life in every respect which they had before lived; but so did not Christ: He rose again to leave this world. Now I am no more in the World, John 13:1, Now before the feast of the passover, when Jesus knew that his hour was come that he should depart out of this world unto the Father, having loved his own which were in the world, he loved them unto the end.
John 17:11, And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
He rose to live to God, that is, to intercede and rule, and all to the glory of the Father. Thus must we rise to live to God: this is what he calls newness of life.
My thoughts on the passage and MH's explanation:
I find that now that I am much better and can engage in life and relationships, I am beginning to be swept up in the cares of this world as if eternity is far off and hard to be understood. And here I had such a keen understanding just a short while ago. Christ maintains His view of eternity always. All in the present, though we plan and toil, is towards that end. Nothing that we do here fits us for heaven. Only Christ's continual work in us has merit.
We will share in His glory. It is set before us also. Unfathomable and humbling it is as the nature of understanding spiritual things is that it demands a greater degree of humility. It is impossible to be proud of our good graces, thanks to Him. Anyone who is, is graceless indeed. What could possibly compare to sitting with Him in glory? Or even now knowing how He works, how He worked in us, and continues to work here on earth. Here we are working along side Him until we meet Him in eternity.
We rise to leave this world also. Everyday we do. Everyday we are a day closer. Every day we have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Our confidence is that the God of heaven rules and superintends over all we would leave behind. He is our confidence.
Should we stay a while longer, we too will intercede and rule over our homes. Our jurisdiction for the time being. We rise and we live unto God. That is our witness. Whether we rise a little, or are restored to full health in order that we may do quite a lot, it is all done in newness of life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
We are the benefactors no matter what the circumstances.