Friday, April 06, 2007

Grandfather's Affections

Grandpa gathered us girls around him last night and told us about Grandmother. As we sat at his feet he attended to us with gentle affection and tearfully expressed his sorrow for the passing of his wife of 59 years. He knit us to himself with statements regarding how "we" would part from our beloved Grandmother saying our goodbyes together at her funeral.

Our company was refreshing to him and I am glad that our perseverance to become meek, quiet and contented in all God's Providences has given us a countenance that ministered to him in his grieving state. He showed his delightedness in us and special attentions as only a grandfather can for his granddaughters. He expounded well into the evening about his adventures in WWII and for the first time proudly displayed his medals to us. It was a full evening indeed, but I have to draw attention to one moment in particular. Following dinner, he directed his attentions to Andrea and I and directly exhorted and advised us about our future. He has never done this before. His patriarchal qualities called him to it and I am grateful for his leadership and instruction. When the clock struck again in the wee hours of the night sent us to bed with embraces that were longer and tighter than ever.

Even in this time of his greatest sorrow his masculine fortitude perseveres and he ministered to us and for this I am truly grateful.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Mr. Baxter on prayer

I was in a violin shop yesterday reminiscing with the owner of our mutual friendship with Mr. Kelly at the exact time that my grandmother passed on to the here after. Facing death once again has brought thoughts about mortality, salvation, faith amongst others to mind. And so, I spent today with my friend Baxter and he explained many things to me.

One of which is how we may know when our prayers are answered and when not.

Two ways: sometimes by experience, when the thing itself is actually given us; and always by the promise; when we ask for that which God commandeth us to ask, or promiseth to grant, for we are sure God's promises are all fulfilled. If we ask for the objects of sense (as food or raiment, or health, &c.) sense will tell us whether our prayers be granted in the same kind that we asked for; it is faith that must tell you that your prayers are granted; but yet faith and reason make use of evidence or signs. As if I pray for pardon of sin, and salvation, the promise assureth me, that this prayer is granted, if I be a penitent, believeing, regenerate person, otherwise not; therefore faith only assureth me that such prayers are granted, supposing that I discern that evidence of my regeneration, repentance, and faith in Christ. So if the question be whether my prayer for others, or for temporal mercies, be answered in some kind, and conduce to my good some other way, faith only must tell you this from the promise, by the help of evidences. There are millions of prayers that will be found answered at death and judgement, which we knew not to be answered any way but by believing.